I always believed that I was destined to be ‘the fat girl’, that I would forever just be ‘fat’. I truly believed that that is just who I was and who I was going to be and there was no hope in changing that. I had every excuse in the book; I will start on Monday, low fat/low calorie diets don’t work for me, the only ‘diet’ that works for me is the protein diet and that causes me all kinds of digestive issues, I don’t have the time to cook all the time, I’m too busy for the gym, I’m too busy in general, I can’t afford a weight loss program, I have PCOS which causes weight gain and difficulty in loosing weight, blah, blah, blah….the list goes on and on and on. Let’s be honest…these are all just excuses, lame excuses at that! The ONLY reason that I was going to continue to be ‘the fat girl’ is because I wasn’t willing and/or ready to take control of my own life and my own choices. But, that changed in December of 2008. After being inspired by my Dad, Mom and Brother who had been following the Weight Watchers plan and been very successful with it for several months, Dan and I decided it was time to make some changes in our lives. For our daughter, for our future, for each other and most of all for ourselves!
For me personally, I was a convenience eater. Anyone that knows me knows I am on the go all the time, I am busy, busy, busy. So, meals were all about convenience for me, I would drop my daughter off at school, make a quick run through the drive-thru for a burger (or 2) large fries and a diet coke (as if the diet coke really made a difference at that point). Sometimes, I would mix it up and opt for a chicken salad…covered in ranch, with an Oreo shake (because the picture of the shake was always screaming my name). For dinner, it was always a back and forth battle between Dan and I about what to have for dinner. Neither of us wanted to cook or ‘had time’ to cook so it was just a question of where to go for dinner. In retrospect, the amount of time we spent talking about which drive-thru we were going to go to and then trying to decide who would actually take the time to go get the food, and then of course going to get it and getting it ready to eat…it takes the same amount of time to actually COOK a healthy meal right here at home! Never-mind, its WAY cheaper!! I’m not going to lie, the first few weeks on Weight Watchers were tough, in fact I think it took me a few months to get the thoughts and habits that I was so used to for so many years out of my head. It was like I was programmed to drop my daughter off in the morning and then go pick up some food, I can literally remember driving up Madera thinking ‘Carls Jr, Jack in Box, McDonald’s?’ I would catch myself mid thought and shake my head realizing what I had been doing to myself for so long without even thinking about it. I am happy to report that the thought of a drive-thru hasn’t crossed my mind in many, many months! Not that you can’t make good choices at a few select fast food places, but that just wasn’t the way we were doing Weight Watchers this time around. It was and is all about the better choice and the smarter choice for us.
We had done Weight Watchers in the past, but this time it was different. In the past, we did the plan with a means to an end almost. We would set a small goal to loose X amount of weight and then we would plan to just go back to the ‘normal’ lifestyle we were used to living. This time, our goal was to learn how to live a healthy life, how to take care of ourselves, to loose all the weight we needed to loose and of course to maintain the weight loss and continue a healthy lifestyle. I think there was a combination of factors that contributed to our success this time around. We attended, and continue to attend Weight Watchers meetings every week, we have surrounded ourselves with positive strong people, we believe in ourselves and our ability to be successful with this, we had an amazing support system (both inside and outside of Weight Watchers), we followed the plan fully and completely, we supported one another and we continued on week after week….even when we had a tough week. Weight Watchers has been an amazing plan for us! It’s simple, it’s easy, it makes sense, it works, it’s convenient and it still allows you to live a ‘normal’ life.
15 months after we started Weight Watchers I sit here 90 lbs lighter….NINETY POUNDS!!!! And after Tuesday night’s meeting I am SO excited to report that I am now a ‘Lifetime’ Weight Watchers Member!! WOOOTTTT!!!! For those that don’t know what this means, once you reach your goal weight (set by you and your Weight Watchers leader) you must maintain that weight (within 2lbs) for 6 weeks. Once you do that you are considered a ‘Lifetime’ Member (aka, your meetings are now free for as long as you maintain your weight). I still cannot believe that I have come this far!
Although I don’t show it, this is really an emotional thing for me. To think back about how far I have come, how far WE have come in just 15 months…its astounding. I spent so many years of my life hiding behind the smiles, the laughter and the baggy clothes. I don’t think anyone, including Dan, ever really knew how miserable and sad I was. I always put on a happy face and acted as though my weight didn’t bother me, that it didn’t matter, but it did. I broke me down, it drown my confidence and it took away the ability to believe in myself. I feel like loosing those 90 lbs wasn’t just a physical loss of weight but a loss of emotional baggage as well. While the weight loss hasn’t completely changed or taken away all the ‘emotional baggage’ (yet
) it has made a huge impact in my life. I cannot fully explain how awesome it feels and how happy it makes me to be at this place in my life.
Even though I have hit my Weight Watchers goal and achieved my Lifetime Membership, I am not quite done with my journey. I am still working hard everyday to continue to loose weight until I reach my personal goal. Once I hit my personal goal I will begin a new journey, a journey of continuing this new healthy lifestyle. There was a quote in the Weight Watchers ‘weekly’ a few weeks ago that said ‘If you kind of do it, it will kind of work. If you really do it, it will really work.’ This statement couldn’t be more true!!
Some mushy stuff……
To what we like to call our ‘Weight Watchers Family’, from the staff to the other member, you have all played such an integral part in this journey for us. The staff at Weight Watchers in Simi is awesome!!! We adore you ladies and cannot thank you enough for all of your hard work and support. The other members that are there week in and week out on Tuesday nights…you guys rock! You motivate us, you share with us and you help support us more than you know! You are all a large part of why we look forward to our Tuesday night meetings!! We feel so lucky to meet some really great people that we like to call our friends (and neighbors
) and we look forward to watching all of you achieve your goals.
To our amazing friends and family, I’m not sure if you all really know how much we adore and appreciate all of your love and support. This has been such a crazy journey for us thus far and so many of you have stood by us, held our hands and cheered us on the entire way. You loved us 300lbs ago and continue to love us now. Your support has shown us even more what amazing people you all are and how lucky we are to have you all in our lives.
Adrienne, I’m not sure that we would have been this successful without you. While I realize that the success of our weight loss was in the choices and decisions that we made and continue to make for ourselves, I also realize that having a strong, motivating, funny, and straight to the point rock behind it all is equally as important. YOU are our rock! You greet us every week with a smile, with support, with concern, with motivation and with love. I’m not sure if you realize the extent of what you do each week for so many people. Any weight watchers leader can give you the tools for success and send you on your way to find your own success. However, it takes a special person to actually motivate, encourage, teach, support and LEAD someone to success…you are one of those special people. You remind us all to find the positive in things, to remember that there will always be a holiday or a party, to plan, that tomorrow is a new day, and most of all to believe in ourselves and remember that we are worth it! We love you for helping us and leading us to get our lives back. We can’t wait to continue the next part of our journey with you.
Mom and Dad, you have stood by us since the beginning. You never doubted that we could do this, and you supported us every single step of the way. Thank you for inspiring us to start Weight Watchers in the first place, for encouraging us, for standing by us, but most of all thank you for your unconditional love and support. We are SO ready to start this new chapter in our lives as happier and healthier people. There is no way we could have been as successful as we have been without all of your love and support. You are the best role models and ‘post-it notes’ anyone could ever ask for.
Dan, my amazing (skinny and hot) husband. Babe, I am SO ridiculously proud of you!!! You have overcome some amazing odds. I mean, honestly…your running a 1/2 marathon in just over a week…that is amazing!! I can’t tell you how much I wish I could be there with you when you cross that finish line. You know, so many people ask us how we lost the weight and we always say ‘there is no big secret, weight watchers and exercise’. But in all fairness, sometimes I feel like maybe I do have a ‘big secret’ on my side…YOU! Your support, your love and your belief in me has helped me more than I think you know. You are so strong, so motivated and so driven, I’m honored to be your partner in life and on this journey. You believed in me when I didn’t believe in myself and you encouraged me every step of the way and I cannot thank you enough for that! I love you more than you know and I’m so very proud to be by your side as we start this next chapter in our lives. Babe, I loved you the day I said ‘yes’, I loved you more the day I said ‘I do’ and I am so happy to say that I love you even more today! I can’t wait to say ‘I do again’ to you in May!!
And here my friends is a before and current (I won’t call it ‘after’ just yet because I’m not quite done
). I had a VERY hard time finding a ‘before’ photo that you could see the actual ‘before’, as a professional photographer I was really good at either avoiding being in front of the camera all together, positioning myself to be fairly hidden behind other people or things, or just all together deleting the photos that (at the time) I thought looked nothing like I really did
. In fact this ‘before’ photo was one of the select few that I didn’t delete because this one (believe it or not) was one of the more flattering/weight hidden photos. I’m actually really bummed that I deleted so many of the others that probably really showed a valid ‘before’ image.

So here’s to the next stage of our journey…because we have only just begun!
by Charise
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